Lord Help My Brain

Cancer does not just attack the body, it also attacks the brain.

I am normally a very rational person.

Emotional is not how I would describe myself.

Except when it comes to flip flops, but that is a whole other story.

More times than I would like to count over the last few days my brain has actually left my body and began reacting on its own.

First my brain starts to skip a bit when someone looks at me and I feel those 'oh I am so sorry for you eyes' and my brain says 'pitiful'.

Then my brain breaks into a trot when I feel the 'I am afraid to hug you because I might catch it' reaction from someone. 

Really, is that at all rational?  It is not like leprosy!  The cells are not on the outside of my body!!

And then my brain takes off in a full sprint like yesterday a sweet girl told me to sit down.  She told me to sit so that I could enjoy a particular event. 

My brain (already outside of my body) said 'why do I have to sit down?  Just because I have cancer does not mean that I am an invalid.  I can still do things.  I feel fine'.

A bit dramatic wouldn't you say.

My brain could have probably won an award for that reaction.

Fortunately the Lord has tamed my tongue enough that my mouth does not react as quickly as my brain does and I smiled and sat down.

But my brain tired from all the running around it has been doing.

So today I am praying for focus.

I am praying that my brain would truly hear what people are saying and not start ad libbing.

I am praying that Truth would be in the forefront of my mind so there is not room for all crazy minions running around wreaking havoc.

So please pray these things with me and for me!

You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you. Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD, the LORD himself, is the Rock eternal. Isaiah 26:3-4