Sunday, April 10, 2011

Lord Help My Brain

Cancer does not just attack the body, it also attacks the brain.

I am normally a very rational person.

Emotional is not how I would describe myself.

Except when it comes to flip flops, but that is a whole other story.

More times than I would like to count over the last few days my brain has actually left my body and began reacting on its own.

First my brain starts to skip a bit when someone looks at me and I feel those 'oh I am so sorry for you eyes' and my brain says 'pitiful'.

Then my brain breaks into a trot when I feel the 'I am afraid to hug you because I might catch it' reaction from someone. 

Really, is that at all rational?  It is not like leprosy!  The cells are not on the outside of my body!!

And then my brain takes off in a full sprint like yesterday a sweet girl told me to sit down.  She told me to sit so that I could enjoy a particular event. 

My brain (already outside of my body) said 'why do I have to sit down?  Just because I have cancer does not mean that I am an invalid.  I can still do things.  I feel fine'.

A bit dramatic wouldn't you say.

My brain could have probably won an award for that reaction.

Fortunately the Lord has tamed my tongue enough that my mouth does not react as quickly as my brain does and I smiled and sat down.

But my brain tired from all the running around it has been doing.

So today I am praying for focus.

I am praying that my brain would truly hear what people are saying and not start ad libbing.

I am praying that Truth would be in the forefront of my mind so there is not room for all crazy minions running around wreaking havoc.

So please pray these things with me and for me!

You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you. Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD, the LORD himself, is the Rock eternal. Isaiah 26:3-4


  1. First of all I love those cheese puffs!
    On the way home the lord brought this verse to my attention and I think it was for you.
    John 14:27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.


  2. ... But I'm not abandoned. The Father is with me. I've told you all this so that trusting me, you will be unshakable and assured, deeply at peace. In this godless world you will continue to experience difficulties. But take heart! I've conquered the world. John 16:31

  3. I have a feeling if you weren't so good at controlling your tongue you'd definitely have had more words for me over the years ha!

    Praying for your Kathryn!